About me & Why

For years, I silently battled severe anxiety, panic attacks, fear, shame, and the overwhelming feeling of being completely alone.

I loved God deeply, but I struggled mentally and emotionally in ways I didn’t understand — and honestly, for a long time, neither did the people around me.

I remember hearing things like, “You just need to trust God more,” or “You’re not praying hard enough.” I know those words were never meant to hurt me, but they made me feel ashamed, like my anxiety somehow meant my faith was not strong enough.

Over time, though, I realized something important: struggling with anxiety does not make someone less of a Christian.

Mental health struggles are real. Anxiety, panic, depression, trauma, and overwhelming fear do not make someone weak, broken, or less loved by God. We are called to pray, trust God, and stay rooted in His Word, absolutely — but we are also human beings living in a broken world, and sometimes our minds and bodies struggle deeply.

Anxiety can make even ordinary things feel impossible. There was a time I barely left my house for years. I missed birthdays, graduations, family moments, and memories I can never get back.

I have sat on airplanes so overwhelmed with fear that I got off before the doors even closed. I cried myself to sleep afterward feeling embarrassed and defeated.

But God never stopped loving me.

Little by little, things began to change. Counseling helped. Support helped. Honest conversations helped. Baby steps helped.

I used to celebrate simply making it through the grocery store because, for me, that was progress. I would remind myself often that “baby steps are still steps in the right direction.”

And they were.

I am still a work in progress, and I still have anxious moments, but I am no longer where I used to be. I have learned that healing is often gradual, and freedom can come one small step at a time.

That is why I created Faithful & Anxious.

I want people to know they are not alone. I want people to know they can love God deeply and still struggle. Most of all, I want people to know this is a safe place — without shame, without pretending, and without fear of judgment.

We can be faithful and anxious.

And we can keep moving forward anyway.